Why do things have to be so complicated?
Yay! I got a job! Ok, so it’s serving food and drinks…
I am new to this whole serving thing, I’m horrible at memorizing and now I have to memorize an entire menu, all food and ingredients, alcoholic drinks and ingredients….kill me! I totally figured that I’d eventually get acquainted with the menu but, come on! They are having some type of contest thingy with teams and tests! Why now?? I need to spend my time searching for a full time job, not memorizing drink and food ingredients. 😦
Why am I trapped in this home, spending my time and energy learning/memorizing drink & food items for a job that will NEVER be able to pay the mortgage? It’s as if this world is yelling at me to just give up now, stop fighting it because you will never win. I’m totally burned out, I want to be able to worry about something other than my empty fridge, broken car and the home no one in the world wants to look at, much less, buy. I want to wake up tomorrow morning and not see the brick wall in front of my face, the one I work so hard to try to move so I can see the path I’m supposed to follow.
Sia-Breathe Me
The official vid wasn’t able to be embeded… http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghPcYqn0p4Y
Just one offer….please?
Self realization: I’m a people pleaser. Problem: Pleasing the wrong people.
Is this one of my life’s lessons? Is this what I’m supposed to learn from all the loss I’ve experienced? Instead of living my life for God, my family or even myself, I have lived it for my husband, my mortgage company and my job — look where it got me. Why did I put so much of my time and energy into those things. Most importantly, why did I place them above all else?
I realize that I have been presented with an opportunity to do something else if I feel like it, try something new. Maybe that’s what I am meant to do. The house is keeping me trapped here, and now, despite the fact that it will cripple me for a while, I have a way out. I have been given an opportunity to waitress, something I have never done, while being rejected from a position I already have the skills for.
I wish I knew what I was meant to do with my life. What special skill or ability would set me apart from all the rest. Something that could guide me into the right career path. But I don’t have anything!
lol this reminds me of my old car, the Topaz. Before I was allowed to get my driver’s license my parents told me I needed to get a job so that I could pay for car insurance. So, I got a job working at Petsmart! After some time, I my dad sold me his car, a white 1993 Mercury Topaz. This car was an adventure…it had been left stranded in parking lots and friend’s driveways because the totally awesome automatic locks would freeze up and I couldn’t get into the car, haha! The trunk rusted, water got in and it smelled sooo bad and one time the breaks were rusted on and my dad couldn’t remove them! But, it was my car 🙂 An auto book once stated that it was “the car that can do everything, but nothing very well.” It’s kinda how I feel about my life right now. If I could ask for one thing though, it would be the opportunity to find out what I am good at, something I love to do. But please, don’t let this house stop me. Just one successful offer before it goes into foreclosure, please?
Actual facts regarding the 1.4% military pay increase…
After reading this:
“President Obama has proposed a 1.4% pay increase for active duty military in 2011. This is THE LOWEST SINCE 1973! Nice to know that during a time of rampant inflation, while war is fought in 2 theatres, our men and women in uniform get A LOWER PAY INCREASE THAN WELFARE RECIPIENTS. Please repost if you support our troops!”
on a couple of facebook updates, I decided to look it up to see how true it really is and found this (taken from http://politifailed.blogspot.com/2010/03/obama-only-proposing-14-increase-for_05.html:
By law the administration’s pay increase proposal is restricted to no more than the Employment Cost Index (ECI). The ECI is a quarterly economic series detailing the changes in the costs of labor for businesses in the United States economy. The ECI is prepared by the Bureau of Labor Statistics (BLS), in the U.S. Department of Labor. It is 1.4%. The 2009 inflation rate was -0.34%. Negative inflation is generally not considered ‘rampant’. Social security, which is national, did not increase in 2010 for the first time in three decades and is expected to not increase in 2011 either. Welfare payouts are determined at the state level, not by the President or Congress.
Also last years initial proposal was 2.9%. It ended up being 3.4% because Congress decides on the final increase, not the President, who submits the initial proposal based on law, not his discretion.
Sources:
http://usmilitary.about.com/cs/moneymatters/a/2004payact.htm
http://www.military.com/news/article/white-house-offers-14-pay-raise-in-2011.html
http://www.inflationdata.com/inflation/Inflation_Rate/CurrentInflation.asp
http://www.bls.gov/news.release/eci.toc.htm
When life goes from bad to worse…
What do you do when life gets really hard? Just when you think things couldn’t get any worse, they do. What happens next? How do you stay strong, keep focused and continue moving forward?
For me, it’s knowing that there are people out there counting on me, supporting and loving me no matter what. The last thing you want to do during these rough times is alienate yourself from those closest to you.
I think that, despite what is said in the news, things are not getting better and they may not for quite some time. With the upturn, perhaps we became so self involved and so greedy that our expectations of what life is about became distorted and unrealistic. We relied on materialistic things to guarantee happiness. Perhaps this is a way to show us that there is more to life than having the newest technology, the biggest TV or the best name brand products you can find.
I never lived so far outside of my means, I haven’t racked up credit card debt, my idea of buying things I didn’t need involved buying a new pair of jeans because the ones I had been wearing were worn through and borderline inappropriate to wear in public… 😛 I worked to pay the mortgage I was stuck with when my husband left me. I’ve been trying to sell my home for over a year and now I’ve lost my job. Because I was living month to month I have nothing. The price on my home as been dropped to the lowest possible price it can sell for and still not a single sole is interested in it. Next step is short sale. Not sure what this will involve and I’m not sure what it will do to my credit, but due to a couple major unfortunate circumstances, I am stuck in this spiral downturn. I’m right beside so many people going through the same thing, some far worse.
It seems like everyone knows at least one person who is going through a rough time due to this horrible economic crises so, the point of all this is to say, that we need to stick together and help each other out.
Someone told me tonight…
that going through these rough moments will help bring on better moments in life. I said that I hope they are really good…which actually sounds quite, selfish or overly deserving? Of course I didn’t realize it until after but, I said it to try to convince myself that something good could happen at all. Mostly, I fear that these horrible moments in life are there to make me stronger, perhaps stronger for something far worse to come?
I know people who are going through far worse and they seem to hold themselves together just fine. I just feel like I’m ready to be happy again. I’m ready for the good life-altering situations to start happening and the bad ones to stop. I want to be able to help others. I want to make a difference in someone else’s life they way my friends and family have made a difference in mine.
Are you serious?! 